Nothing big until later tonight, Will be meeting up with the guys to celebrate. My sister, Matthew, and I will be heading to Jimmy’s to have dinner together (apparently) then after that, heading to Matt’s house to start everything there. My boyfriend will be meeting up later, due to double shifts at work, but I’m pretty sure he’s just gonna be too tired to really “party”. I hope today goes well and everything is fun, I might smoke beforehand to start my own party, but who knows. His mum did say we were allowed to drink if we were safe and not getting out of hand (Natalie I forgot to tell you) but with my IBS acting up lately, I’m not sure…I just want to see my boyfriend drunk once.
I honestly don’t know how to feel or expect in the year 2012. Usually, my years start off amazing and usually end either mediocre or terrible, and I’m just looking for a new year, new start. I feel it’ll be bittersweet, some “events” are prolly still in the air, returning back to school, and by the next school year, my boyfriend will be in France for 6 months. Meaning, the communication is going to be very VERY rare, so that is bitter sweet. I hope the New years start good and stays good, or at least start getting good towards the middle/end.
I want to gain better confidence and not give a shit about anything or anyone besides me this year. That is my New Years revolution.
Where a group of us can come together, strangers talking/getting to know eachother. We can bitch about our lives, gossip, vent about people/friends share exciting stories that others may judge (or that are risky) and just become friends…
If anyone else has thought of this, let me know. If anyone likes this idea, message me or something. Or reblog?
Sometimes I wonder how certain people can act so douchy.
Usually, a situation like this doesn’t bother me. But with my recent, stressful, events lately, Ive been feeling more negative, unwanted, and hated.
When with my boyfriend yesterday, his brother comes in asking how far we were in the movie (Just coming back from the bars) we told him there were about 20 minutes left. There was a brief pause and suddenly he just barks “S (me) you should go home now”. He had a rude tone to it to and knowing him, he was just gonna plop on the bed and watch the internet for another hour. Made me feel so unwanted for some reason.
Like he’s rude to a lot of his friends and past girlfriends. He boasts about how he is the BEST AT EVERYTHING, no joke… He is the typical cocky bro.
Like, how can people act to rude to others? Especially since I have such limited time with him, I want to be with him as much as I can.